Hosanna (by Brenton Brown)

Awesome song.  I'm listening to it as I write.  Church this morning was...breathtaking.  But that's not the right word.  I once told my mum, that there is nothing better than being in a room of people all worshipping the same God as you.  And there truly isn't.  Not to me anyway.  One of the elders spoke this morning, and he chose to speak on being 'spiritually aware' and being 'tuned into God'.  He read from Acts 2 v1.  Basically, the verse talks about how on the day of Pentecost, everybody was of one accord, in one place.  Their hearts were all in the same place, their minds were all in the same place.  And (some would say coincidentally but I say as a result of the Holy Spirit) that is exactly what happened this morning during worship.  There was one point, at which the band stopped playing, and all you could hear was everyone singing to God, worshipping in their own way, and it was awesome.  Anyone could have walked in right then and they would have told you that God was in that room.  It was such pure, unadulterated worship.  When people say that the word of God is sharper than any two edged sword they know what they mean.

The elder also said, he felt that there were some people in church this morning who were struggling with unforgiveness.  I knew straight away my dad was one of them.  For those of you who don't know, unforgiveness eats you up.  It slowly destroys you, and you have no idea that it is.  My dad has deep wounds of unforgiveness concerning his parents.  They weren't the best parents they could have been, to say the least, they didn't abuse him or anything, they just didn't pay him near enough attention.  The only time they did was when he had achieved something academically.  That's kind of rubbed off on my dad.  A similar thing happened with my mum, but unlike my dad, she has learnt to forgive.  My dad's father died a couple of years ago, and after that my dad slowly descended into a bitterness.  I prayed and prayed this morning that my dad would go up for prayer about his problem with unforgiveness.  He didn't go up.  That's okay.  I appreciate that my dad still has to acknowledge he has a problem before he can want to fix it.  So I'll just keep praying.  All in God's time.

We (my dad, my sister and I -my mum was tired so she stayed at home) went for a Nigerian christian fellowship yesterday.  This uncle I had never seen before spoke.  Mostly on a variety of things.  There is something I really left with that he said yesterday.  He said that he and his wife, pray a prayer to God asking him to help them to see sin as what it really is.  It's such a good prayer to pray.  Until you see that something isn't right in God's eyes, you don't think that it's wrong, but then sometimes seeing it how God sees it helps you to acknowledge it as sin and turn away from it.  I'm gonna start to pray that prayer more often.

Yes.  I did see him today.  That was nice.  I was hoping I would get to speak to him on my own, but no such luck.  First my sister walked over, even though I had told her I wanted to speak to him on my own.  Then her friend walked over.  Then this other friend of mine from church walked over.  So there we have it.  A chance all gone.

Okay so it's my church youth group's annual barbecue this Thursday.  I can't wait.  I'm actually allowed to go =]  So hopefully I'll have a good time.  And I'll see him.

Thanks for letting me chat with you guys. =]

G. I. T.

xoxo